Waiting is to be our Earthly Schooling

PC: Tim&MarthaBerger

It's been 6 months since we made our news public.

We didn't know what the timeline would be. When would the business sell? When would we put the house on the market? When would we leave for Language School?

When? When? When????

I don't consider myself to be patient. When I tell my kids to do something 3 times and the only action is a blank stare, I lose my patience. When I'm waiting on that important document to come in the mail and each day it doesn't come, I grow more anxious and grumpy, I'm not practicing patience. I even lose patience with myself, "ugh! You messed up again!"

I know some of you may be thinking, what's the rush? Aren't you glad you're getting to spend more time up here in the States?

Yes, there are days that I'm thankful the chaos of moving a young family, not once, not twice, but probably 12 (exaggeration, I hope) times before its all said and done, is not staring me in the face.

But, have you ever known God's Will? Do you know what it's like to have a reassurance that God has a Plan for you that's even better than what you plan for yourself? I liken it to waiting for Jesus to return and take His Bride home. Watching. Seeing the signs. Being ready. Doing the things that you will want to have done when you won't have the ability to do them anymore. Being aware of how you affect the community.

I've had really l-o-w moments where I thought, "He must have the wrong person. I cannot do this". "This is impossible." You know how God uses your kids to teach you lessons? One of our kids struggles with insecurity. "You don't love me." "I can't do that." "I'm not good at that." And I can tell them over and over and over that "Yes, I do love you. Yes, you can do that. God will help you if you only ask Him." It doesn't make me feel very good to hear my child say that I don't love them. So imagine the way God feels when I say, "You have the wrong person. Ask someone else." ACCFS gave me a great paper to combat those negative feelings and I've since used it to help our child. I've appreciated their childlike faith that is so quick to grasp on to these truths.

Lately, I've tried to see the positives in the waiting. The biggest one I can see so far is that our kids are getting an excellent education here. When we go to Language School, the kids will only be in Spanish Language Classes. They will not have any academic classes. So for 6 months, the only things going in their brains will be Spanish. I feel like reading in English first is very necessary and so I'm thankful Clayton is as old as he is and will be learning to read this school year. His teacher has told me how well he has improved from the first week of school. Thank You, Jesus!

Another one is spiritually. We are learning lessons here that I feel can only help us on the mission field.

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